a work colleague's wife is pregnant. they already have a boy and twin girls. due in December, which is when I would possibly have been due. he's such a nice guy, and they had a hard time when the twins were born early, and she's had one miscarriage. they deserve whatever they want. but I'm still jealous.

A finally went to childcare today. had a great time, too, by all accounts. Me? I did useless small things, scrapped yesterday's writing work and had a big afternoon sleep. still a bit sick with this cold, feeling blah and slow and useless. so much for the week off between chemo and radio.