Me: What a perfect morning, huh? Gorgeous!
Co-worker: I know...doesn't get much better than this.
Principal: Whatever you do, don't turn the television on.
Me: Okay, but I teach math...that won't happen.
Principal (uncharacteristically solemn): Just don't turn it on.
Students: What's going on?
Me: I have no idea, but let's get back to this equation. They'll tell us if there's anything we need to know...what should I do next with this variable?
Co-worker: Planes have hit the Twin Towers...everyone is evacuating NYC.
Me: Holy shit...small planes?
Co-worker: No...jets.
Me: This doesn't happen here. Sounds like war. This doesn't happen here.
Me: I can't get through to my family. The cell phones aren't working.
Co-worker: They've shut them down in case the people who did this are trying to communicate with each other.
Me: I know, but I need to know...they're in New York and Boston...I need to know.
Co-worker: Keep trying.
Student: I heard the World Trade Center was attacked. Are they going to bomb the school?
Me: I'm not clear on the details, but I don't think it was a bomb. You're safe.
Student: I'm nervous...my Aunt works there.
Me (fighting tears): I'm nervous too.
Secretary: Tons of parents are coming to get their kids...let them go immediately when I call them down. We have a lot of parents who work in the Twin Towers.
Me: No problem, but don't they know their kids are safe here? (that question definitely shows my naivety at the time...people want to be with their families in a time of extreme crisis...not their teachers)
Principal: We're closing early...go home and be with your family.
Me: I don't even know where my family is.
Boyfriend: This is crazy.
Me: I know.
Boyfriend: My Mom has meetings there twice a week.
Boyfriend: My Mom has meetings there twice a week.
Me: Was today one of those days?
Boyfriend (scanning TV for a familiar face): I don't know.
I spent the rest of the day like most Americans...trying to find my loved ones and crying at what I was watching on TV. I couldn't believe it. It just couldn't happen to us. It was all too much.
That day changed me, the way I did my job, my relationship, my view of what "safety" really was...my definition of a perfect morning.
Never forget...9-11-2001.
Never forget...9-11-2001.