Guilt...Every Time I Turn Around...

• Found Father's Day cards that I bought for my Dad...from last year...guilt b/c they never got sent and I didn't know it until now, so I couldn't even apologize.
• Didn't get to see my friend this weekend.
• Didn't get as much done around the house this weekend.
• Took a nap on Saturday as was so exhausted from spin/Husband to gym/swim class turnaround that we experienced Saturday morning.
• Didn't clean out closet/dresser.
• We're always scrambling for dinner...hence (out of guilt), I made a meatloaf for tonight.
• I'm not organized enough because I don't have enough space in this house.
• I used to be better a multi-tasking...what happened to that? Do I have twin-induced ADD?
  

So, I started this post in the morning, went through my day (which was not easy), and got to my other extreme.

• I can't do everything.
• My kids and Husband appreciate what I am able to accomplish (most of the time).
• So what if I don't have my kids signed up for any summer activities...some people never put their kids in anything, so I'm doing okay.
• The closet and dresser will still be there this weekend...full of things I don't wear/hate.
• I made a meatloaf today...GO ME!!!
• My family and friends will understand and if they don't, I don't know what to say...I wish you peace?
• I can't do everything...I cannot be a great Mommy, loving wife, dedicated family member, "drop everything" friend, fledgling gardener, amateur photographer, and part-time math tutor...I just can't do it all. I can only be one person at a time...if it's not your turn, my apologies.

I'm like a humongous pendulum...I swing severely to one side or the other. I am constantly struggling with trying to be what everyone wants me to be. I have to remember though that the most important thing for me to be right now is a good Mommy.

Are you on a pendulum? How are you swinging right now? Hopelessly Guilty Woman? Or Happily Hanging On?