I don't know if it's the weather, the fact that I hate January/February, or if I'm starting to get post-partum depression now...4 months later. I'm in a shitty mood. I couldn't sleep last night...well, actually, the babies kept waking up and "talking" to themselves in the middle of the night. When I would finally get myself down to sleep, I kept hearing "you suck," "I hate myself," and "you could be a better mother." What the fuck is that about? I don't actually agree with any of those things, but why were they running through my head...as was the christening which we have yet to plan (or pick a church or a denomination for that matter), money (does that ever stop?), nursery school (really?), and whether or not I should hang their clothes or put them in a dresser. That is ridiculous shit.
I guess I can chalk it up to the fact that I think I have just gotten my first period since November 23, 2007...that's right...2007! Maybe all of those hormones just come rushing back...so much fun.
On a happier note, the babies are doing great...I love them so much and we are starting to have a lot of fun. Hailey is still hooting like an owl and Matthew is the loudest kid I know! There is a lot of ice here today...roads aren't so bad, but the trees are covered...it's really pretty.
